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Saturday, December 10, 2016

college?

long time no see everyone :')

finally i get some free time (yay for 4 days holiday!) and i decided to write again yay

i know that in my last post i called myself stupid for not knowing what college should i go into but after a long, long struggle and wait ~~and many watch-kpop-and-kdramas activities~~, i am officially an:

International Relations student of Padjajaran University

and i'm proud of it :')

why i'm using maroon color on 'international relations' word? because it's IR Unpad's color duh

ah, college... for those people who is still in high school, be thankful because college is not what you really think it is. when you get into college, it doesn't mean you finally be free from assignments and such. dear, those assignments is just the beginning. in here, you will get assignments that twice harder and many-er (i don't think that word is exist?) than in high school. you probably will get exhausted easily (like me) because of many fucking assignments and some ~~fuckboy~~ lecturer that doesn't care whether you have other assignments from another classes or not. you probably will end up complaining then be a procrastinator (also me) then do the homework until three in the morning (yes it's very me). there's time when i really, really miss high school then i end up with mental-breakdown (read: called my high school friends at midnight). nah, i don't really experience mental-breakdown, YET. thankfully, my college friends aren't a jerk nor fuckboy, yet, again. that fact alone makes my college life much, much easier because there's no drama in it. but some people are in fact, a jerk, which is pain in the ass, and i'm trying to not letting it get on my nerves.

getting into college... i feel stupid. really. my friends are really bright and full of knowledge then there's me, just sitting there like a potato, knowing just a little bit. but i'm happy because i'm able to find my passion in college, which is football and photography. i'm already join international relations football club and join 'pubdesdekdok' (i don't know the english word for that so fuck you, oding) on porang makrab 2017 yay! wait for the teaser~

so... overall, i'm happy! i have so many friends there which makes everything easier, because people said, all you need is a friend, right?

bye for now!

Saturday, April 9, 2016

It's my birthday!!

I never asked for a birthday party. I never asked for a birthday surprise, either. Hell, I never asked for a birthday gift. I have been living a life with a mindset, 'I'm happy if someone just remember my birthday and say happy birthday to me.' It's not that I don't like birthday party and such, but if you can't make a birthday party for me, it's okay. I appreciate it if you just remember my birthday. It makes me warm, you know? Knowing that someone is still care about you. And I'm thankful for that.

Yes, I'm officially eighteen now.

FOR FUCK SAKE I FINALLY CAN GET MY DRIVER LICENSE LETS GO

Ah, thank you everyone, for making this day fun and warm. I really like it. But in one hour, my day will come to an end. /sob/ I will missed my birthday surprise when I was at eleventh grade when I'm in college tho.

Speaking of college, I don't know where I will go to. Really. I don't if I can get a good university. Ah, stupid...

Funny, right, how a 'happy birthday' can made your day if it's from the right person. THE right person, get it? I'm so happy right now I can come to his house even though he is overseas...

Really, everyone. I'm really thankful today. Thank you for saying a happy birthday to me. Thank you for remembering it even though its just from facebook. I KNOW HALF OF YOU REMEMBER MY BIRTHDAY FROM FACEBOOK

진짜, 사랑해요. 정말 고마워습니다.

마지막, 내 생일, 끝났어! 안녕!!!

Friday, January 22, 2016

the reason i die in the future

eventually, people will die. right? there's many reason why people will die:

1. age. people will die when they get real old (except when God let it live it lives).

2. sickness. is there people who never get sick? none. if the sickness become really bad and the doctors can't handle it anymore, they tend to let the patient die because its sad to look at someone who is suffering from disease(s).

3. by accident. but once again, if God let it live it lives.

-everything is under God's hand guys, believe me.-

but in my case, there's one more reason why i die in the future

and that is

fucking KPOP

why

i used to not liking kpop. like, i hate it so much. but i guess karma hit me and im in love with it nowwww

hopefully for a long time :) i have to watch bangtan concert at jkt T_T

huf what to do

its been a long time since i write blog... the last time i write was when We The Fest 2015 was coming to town (I WATCH IT AND IM PROUD OF MYSELF) ~~but after a long thinking its not that long actually HAHA~~

i have a tight schedule now :( next week i will do many practice exam. a week after next week i will have national exam simulation... sigh its so tight

and i have a photoshoot session for yearbook... its supposed to be fun but why it feels like a burden to me :(

by the way i have to go now byeee